Today the sun was shining, the blossoms on the cherry tree pinkie white against the brilliant blue of the sky, a little hand tucked in mine as we wandered up the avenue talking about our weekend soothed so many creases, but with my little friend safely tucked up at school, chitter chattered replaced with loneliness, demons followed me back along the daffodil lined pavements.
Sometimes my eyes fill with big ploppy tears that won't fall, I know this big grey battleship of gloom will untether and float away one day its just the lost limbo boardwalk I have to cross to get back to land that hinders my steps. I felt this way after Joshy too for a while, a lonely unfounded existence but I know it will go as quickly as it came, one morning I'll wake up and it'll be gone! Thank you so much for your comments they have helped so much, I wasn't sure if I should blog about this but I want my blog to be real, my thoughts, my feelings ....... my life!
Anyhow on to nicer stuff! Steve went off to town yesterday and came home with Cross Stitcher!
Joshy and I swirled in the kitchen listening to Vera, stirring our wooden spoons in big flour filled mixing bowls, squashing bananas and chopping dates,
and finally when Joshy and Sammy were sleeping soundly in their little beds, I cut a slice of tea loaf and sat and looked through the glossy pages of stitchy loveliness!
oh erm! Steve wanted to get in on the photo shoot with his cup of coffee!
I love those retro designs, so much so that I've just subscribed, I gave up for a while but I've been tempted back. There were a few other patterns I liked too but my camera ran out of batteries!
And so that's what I'll be doing this week to battle those baby blues, stitching and baking, reading and dreaming, I hope you're all having lovely spring days!
11 Little messages:
Your new blog design is so pretty! I love the cross stitch of the housewife in black and white. So neat. I hope you feel better soon!
Oh Fliss, my heart goes out to you, I didn't feel like that after having babies, mine started when my second marriage ended even tho I instigated it. I won't go into details however he was a very angry man and turned that anger at me and was unfaithful.
I was in limbo and cried a lot, then one day it just seemed to evaporate, as I knew it would. And you know it will pass too. Your blog header is gorgeous along with the way you write.
Take care x Sandi
Thinking of you during this difficult time. I love the Will and Kate sampler. Thanks for sharing. I'll try to hunt down the magazine at the newsagent. Hugs to you.
I love this new crisp look to your blog, it's lovely.Thank you for sharing this edition of the mag. I hvaen't bought one in years, but I like the look of this, will investigate it later at the shops.
Sending you a big hug my lovely.
Lisa x
Oh big hugs from me,Fliss!
My daughter has just had a baby and was a little tearful last week, so I know what it's like...and a lot of it is due to little sleep,I think!
Hope you feel more chirpy soon ;-) x
Hi Fliss, I am still here and fine but just taking a back seat in the blogging world at the moment......I understand the world of PND so well, having suffered after all four of my babies were born..............it can be a lonely place, I think it's good to get your thoughts and feelings out through your blog and it can help so much getting feedback from other women who have gone through the same.
My son buys me the subscription each year to cross stitcher as a birthday gift.........love all the retro/vintage ideas they've come up with lately.
Anyway you take care of yourself and just keep it in your mind that the clouds will lift and I'm sure you will start to feel better soon.
florrie x
Hugs, hugs, hugs! I hope you feel better soon, that sunny day will arrive and you will awake smiling.
Love your new header.
Thank you for your comment on my blog.
Julie xxxxxxx
Adore your new header.
Yup, know what you mean about teary times. Hope it passes soon.
Hi Fliss.
Loving your new look blog so pretty!
I used to call it (in my head) falling down the black rabbit hole. I could physically feel it in my gut. But the good days will come. Sending you hugs and happy thoughts.
MBB x
Ooooh, glad you like the mag. We think it's one of our favourite covers yet. And so many retro designs, looks right up your street. Enjoy xx
I hope your teary time is easing. With a similar story to Sandi I too know exactly what it is like to suddenly be overwhelmed when you don't expect it and have tears running down your face.
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